just kill'em...

hey everyone. well the fall semester has began so i'm back to the grind. i'm still scheduled for graduation dec 2008. yay! this semester i'm taking 15hrs (finance, real estate, managerial science, mgmt accounting, professional accounting). i'm super excited with my classes.

i find myself not only interested in accounting, but also real estate (i want to invest in properties/ flip some houses) and as a hobby, photography (i'll post some photographs when i get a new cam for my bday). also, i'm still in the process of getting an accounting internship for this fall.

i'm still working on being a better christian. right now i'm in the "kill'em with kindness" business. i know people who have such a deep hatred for me and i don't know why. they want to see me fail, fall on my face, and crash and burn. sometimes i want to just curse them the hell out, but when u think about it, thats what they want you to do. they want u to be as miserable as they are. so u know what i do...i just kill'em with kindness. i forgive them for the mean things they have said and done to me. i don't go around rollin my eyes when i see them, i just smile at them and tell them to "have a blessed day" and i mean it. yall, i have left them speechless! lol. the look of surprise on their face is enough to give me peace. who would have thunk it? it actually works! whoever said the way to conquer hate..is with love was right. now if we could just get dubya bush to know that..we could change the world (in a good way). :-)

alright thats my update for now. i'm gonna leave you with an excerpt from an article i like on www.christianitytoday.com by colleen alden about being yourself. be blessed yall!

Authenticity
Every once in a while a man comes along who sparks my interest, and vice versa. Then, a funny thing sometimes happens. The more interested I become, the more I become someone else. Someone a little less opinionated, less passionate, more interested in oh, say … auto racing.
Recently I began spending time with a man in a singles gathering I attend. He's a terrific guy—he loves the Lord deeply, has a heart for people, and is actively involved in ministry. He also happens to be physically attractive, too. In our group, he's known as the most eligible bachelor around.

When this man began to pursue me, I felt all the old fears kick in. Was I pretty enough? Thin enough? Charming and talkative enough? However, instead of changing who I was to suit his taste, I began to long instead for someone to love me as is. I didn't know if he was that person, but I decided to let time reveal the mystery. And when he broke things off, I wasn't devastated. I simply felt I'd been given an answer. Though disappointed, I was content and able to let go.
God has made me the woman I am; years of being single have allowed me the opportunity to learn who this woman is. Perhaps God allowed this brief relationship to show me the futility of trying to be someone I'm not, as I've done in previous relationships. It was so much easier and less exhausting to just be myself. I realized I'd rather be single than be with someone who wants me to be someone else. What a lifetime of hard work that would be!

God knows better than anyone who I really am. He wants a man to love me for the woman he made me to be. He knows when I give who I really am to the right man, the groundwork is laid for a powerful union. What freedom I'm finding in allowing others to know me for who I am: the Colleen who doesn't resemble Cindy Crawford, doesn't always say the right thing, and is bored by college basketball!