Back in the Day..

so since i will be turning this blog into "my journey to love" blog, i figured i might as well give some background info so you know how i got to this ->point<- (ha!). so lets take it back to high school...circa 1997..rockin my wrap, jeans, t-shirts, and k-swiss (yeah, i wasn't exactly a *fashionista* back then). i was an utter and complete nerd. i would call myself the 'wallflower'. i never talked in high school. i sat in the library during lunch period (when you're not part of any clique, where exactly are you gonna sit?). i never attended any sporting events or dances save for senior prom (which i went by myself). yeah...i was pretty unpopular and unnoticed. i actually kinda liked it that way because i hated attention. i had maybe a couple of acquaintances and that pretty much sums of my high school years.

now that you have a picture in your head of me in high school (pathetic) you can pretty much figure out my how my so-called 'love life' was (what love life?) lol. well then, enters college. i had decided to attend alabama a&m univ (HBCU) which is 4hrs away from home. here, noone knew me. here is when it finally happen...i actually decided to .....*wait for it*.... talk! i actually met real friends here (not just acquaintances) and dare i say it.....had fun. i came out of my shell.

i will never forget the first few day of freshmen week. i was walking down the 'block' learning where my classes would be when this dude starts "psssss" at me. now, nothing irks me more now than for a grown azz man to 'psss' at me instead of walking up to talk to me like a freakin human being, but i was just a mere 17yrs old then so i didn't find it insulting. lol. anyhoo, where was i.....ah yes...so i remember turning around and thinking "is he trying to get my attention?". why yes he was actually! he walks up to me and ask my name and could he call me sometime. now picture my face with a shocked expression. i could not believe a dude actually wanted to talk to me! now mind you...i don't think i actually had low self-esteem (at least not any lower than the avg teenage girl), but when you go through all of high school without so much as a hint of male interest, you pretty much don't even think about it happening. we talked for a few months and that was that. he wasn't the only dude i met so i got to date and meet new people. from that 1st semester, i actually figured out that 1)i was cute 2) my style game had to step up (no more jeans and big ol tshirts) and 3) there'ss alot i had to learn about men!

to be continued......