been a min...

hey yall. i know its been a minute since i've updated my webpage. i've just been so busy with school. it's really important to me to make all As this semester. i'm trying really hard to get this nursing scholarship for next year, so i need for my grades to be on point. besides school, i haven't been doing anything (no hot dates). lol. i have, however, met a few guys that seem cool so far. nobody special. it seems like every guy i meet got baggage, (ie. a crazy ex that calls them everday). i got my own issues, i don't need added issues. lol. well anywayz, thats all i have to say 'til next time. be blessed.

things that make you go.. hmmmm

hey yall. i hope everyone's saturday is going great. i'm in a good mood since the Atlanta Falcons won 2nite. i was just thinking about a conversation i had with a guy i've been talkin to lately. i was telling him about the type i guy i want, (come on ladies we all got the infamous "list" lol). the guy i want is someone who is smart, cute, funny, got goals in life (besides being in the entertainment industry), no kids, nice body, between the age of 24 and 30, and lives in the atlanta metro area. when i told him this, my guy friend cracked up laughing. when i asked what he was laughing about... all he said was "good luck". then he started explaining how you never know who you will fall in love with. even if i did meet a guy that fits the "list" that doesn't guarantee that he will be the "one". i thought about that for a minute.. and what he said really made sense! here i thought i had it all figured out and i don't. i guess u really do learn something new everyday. although i still want someone who fits most of the qualites on my "list", i'm still going to stay open-minded when meeting guys cause you never know. it really is about who you connect with. well thats all i wanted to say. 1luv. :-)

can you find love twice?

i was talking to a male friend of mine and we were talking about finding the "one". he started talking about how a couple of years back, he had the perfect relationship. he was in love with a extremely beautiful woman who was just as beautiful on the inside, made $75,000 a year, had no kids, and down to earth. when he was with her he was the happiest he had ever been in his life. so i asked him why they weren't together anymore and he tells me that he cheated on her with his 'baby mama'. i just don't get it! how can a guy who had everything fukk it up?! so basically that just tells me ... no matter how beautiful, smart, rich, or great your girl is, guys will still find a way to mess it up. he told me he knew he messed that up and now he's looking for the one "foreal this time". is it really possible to find love twice? or will you have to settle for less the next time around? i mean, lets be real.... what are the possibilities of him finding someone better than her? if you can cheat on someone who made you the happiest you ever been then what are the chances of you cheating on someone a little below her level? pretty much the same i would think. well i sincerely hope he does find love again. shyt...i'm just trying to find love the first time around. :-)

ain't this a BITCH?!

wow...today has got to be the worst day i had in a long time. when the new year came i was so confident and happy about life. i went to church that new year's eve and just knew this was going to be the year. the sermon message was "the best is yet to come", and i really felt that. unfortunately, i didn't take in account their were going to be obstacles to overcome. how naive of me. the first thing that happened today was that i found out i'm no longer eligible for financial aid. that was a shocker... i mean they could have a warned a sista.. sent a postcard or something! so i was a little down but nevertheless... got over it. then, i also found out that one of the most important classes that i really need to take got taken off my schedule. i mean i registered for this semester the first day of early registration and paid my money and everything! two days before classes started i checked my classes to print out what building and classroom to goto and low and behold one of my freaking classes wasn't there! i tried to register for it again but now the class is closed...ain't that a bitch! so basically that sets me a semester back from graduating. talk about pissed off! so you already get my drift of how pissed off i was. it couldn't get worse than that..right? wrong! i'm driving to school for my late night class just mindin my business... when i see the sirens behind me. i'm sittin there like "great.. a perfect ending to a fukked up day"! this punk ass police officer gives me TWO tickets (not 1) ! i already have one ticket that i have to goto court for next week and this BIATCH gives me another ticket for the same fukkin thing! well anywayz.... today sucked azz and i had to get the shyt off my chest. sorry for all the curse words...it just was one of those days. its way to early in the year for this bullshyt... lets just hope my preacher was right and the best really is yet to come. i hope yall had a better day than i had.

1st day of class!

well today was the first day of the spring semester. i had 2 classes today and they both suck! the first class is a 'regent's essay prep' class. i have never felt so dumb in my life. here i am a 25 year old college graduate who can't even pass a stupid essay part of a required test for college! i'm taking this class so i can be sure to pass it when i take it again in march. when i walked in the room ...why was i the only black person in there?? the class was filled with asians who speak english as a second language! after about 10 min. other blacks and whites came in ...so i hate to admit it...but i was relieved. at least i'm not the only one who can't write a freakin paper. lol. can u blame me... i was a math education major in college. the last english course i took was in '98.
the second class i had to today is a georgia college requirement and the most dreaded class for most people...public speaking aka speech. i was about thisclose to dropping this class because it terrifies me! the only reason i didn't is because i'll have to it take to graduate so i might as well get it over with now. whenver i have to stand in front of people to speak, my hands get sweaty, my heart starts beating really fast, and i feel like i'm going to faint. i'm serious yall... my mind goes totally blank then i start stuttering and saying , "ummm..." alot. oh well..they say "what doesn't kill you makes you stronger" so that will probably be my motto for this semester. wish me luck.

Dry in 2005

well every year on new year's day...people make their new year's resolution. of course, within 3 months most people forgot about them and go back to doing what they normally do and then make that same resolution the next new year. come on ...i know yall know what i'm talkin about. lol. well my new year's resolution, (which i started way b4 2005), is to not have sex or continue to be celibate in 2005. like seriously...no sex, no kissing, no nothing. so of course that means i will stay single for 2005. lol. this year i'm just looking for friendships. if something was to grow from that ...cool, if not ... its cool also. and i'm not talkin about "homey lover friends" either. i really believe the next person i get in a relationship with , will be my husband. so instead of wasting my time dealing with these wack dudes, with their wack game...i'll just chill. its too many diseases out here to be bed hoppin. so i'mma stay dry for 2005. lol.

Finally got a blog! 2005

wow! i finally got a blog. it's been a long time coming. i plan to just write whateva i feel like writing. this is just for entertainment purposes when u chillin at the house or at work and got nothing better to do. thanks for stoppin by. Oh yeah...HAPPY NEW YEAR!
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